A woman who alleges Harvey Weinstein raped her in 2013 has testified she felt guilt and disgust for years after she let him into her hotel room.
The woman, a model and actress living and working in Rome who was in Los Angeles at the time for a film festival, said she began drinking heavily the day after the alleged rape.
“I was destroying myself,” she said. “I was feeling very guilty. Most of all because I opened that door.”
The woman was the first of eight Weinstein accusers set to testify in Los Angeles, where the 70-year-old movie mogul is on trial for multiple counts of rape and sexual assault.
Weinstein, who is already serving a 23-year sentence for a conviction in New York, has pleaded not guilty.
While most of the women have said their assaults began with what were supposed to be business meetings with Weinstein at hotels, the woman who testified on Tuesday said she found him knocking on her door late at night in February 2013.
She said she had met him only briefly earlier in the evening at the Los Angeles Italia film festival and was staying in the hotel under a pseudonym.
She said she had no idea how Weinstein even knew her room number and that she let him through her door initially without thinking there was any harm in it but Weinstein became sexually aggressive.
The woman, whose first language is Russian, said her English was very poor at the time, though it has improved considerably since, and she thought she might have miscommunicated.
“I was feeling guilty that I did something or said something that made him think something could happen between us,” she said.
She said Weinstein forced her to perform oral sex on her hotel bed.
“I was kind of hysterical through tears,” she said. “I kept saying ‘no, no, no’.”
She said she physically feared Weinstein, who outweighed her by 100 pounds or more and considered running or hitting or biting him.
When deputy district attorney Paul Thompson asked why she did not, she answered: “I don’t know. I regret this a lot.”
She said by the time Weinstein took her into the bathroom to rape her, she had stopped physically resisting, though still objected verbally.
“I would just freeze, like my body wouldn’t listen,” she said.
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She said she struggled to face her children after the alleged rape and felt the need to confess to her Russian Orthodox priest. Prosecutors sought the priest to testify but he declined, citing religious privilege. The woman’s daughter, now 21, is set to testify later.
In his opening statement, Weinstein’s attorney Mark Werksman said many of the counts his client is charged with were actually consensual sex his accusers reframed after he became a focus of the #MeToo movement in 2017.
But in the case of the woman who testified on Tuesday, Mr Werksman denied the events in her room happened at all.
